After developing osteoarthritis at the age of 12 resulting in half a knee replacement at the tender age of 44, spending the majority of my life trying to keep going with depression, anxiety, chronic fatigue, IBS and issues sleeping. I was final diagnosed by my rheumatologist with Fibromyalgia in 2015. On the one hand it was a huge relief that I was not actually going mad! But how was I going to cope?
My previous employer was very supportive. I had to have quite a bit of time off work as driving was too painful and for 2016 I was able to carry on working from home which allowed me the freedom to rest when I needed to.
November 2015 was very scary, I found myself at the Countess of Chester Hospital waiting for the Psychiatric nurse to assess me. The pain and fatigue had consumed too much, I felt I had had enough. I don't remember a lot but I had sent a text to a few people and next thing I knew I was being taken to hospital!! After waiting 2 hours and realizing this was not the answer I asked my Husband Richard to bring me home, my family needed me.
I continued with all types of medication, increasing them, swapping them round and trying different alternative therapies to keep me going. My family kept me going but in particular Amy. Amy has severe learning disabilities including Autism, dyspraxia and apraxia. She needed me, so through gritted teeth I had to keep going for her.
Feeling like this for such a long time and having no idea what it is like to feel no pain and fatigue you get very good at masking things!!
Things I have tried over the years to manage my pain and quieten my inner criticism include:
I stumbled across Access Consciousness Bars Therapy in March 2016 at a yoga day, after 30 mins I felt light! As usual life got in the way until I came across it again in June; there was something more to this!
After 6 sessions, and training to become a practitioner and facilitator, and working through the clearing statements Access gives you, I am now 89% better and I have been off all my medication since end of 2016! (DT’s were very hard, not recommended without doctor supervision).
Life is getting better every day, I do still get tired and feel some pain with what life throws at me and I can feel when there is a wave of anxiety and depression coming over, but this only lasts for a very short time.
I have never felt so in tune with my mind, body and soul, my whole being! and to have space and calm in my head, little pain, no judgment or criticism on myself is truly wonderful.
Access Bars could be what you are looking for to create a different possibility! If you could change one thing today what would that be? I look forward to meeting you and contributing to what you want!